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About Me Member Mad Scientist CityWolves21/Male/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 2 Years
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What's there is there. Why can't it be somewhere ELSE!?

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!

Tue Nov 17, 2009, 1:38 AM
  • Mood: Pain
  • Listening to: "Anywhere" by Evanessence
  • Reading: "The Fork" by an Angel
  • Watching: That face in my memory.
  • Playing: at being happy
  • Eating: what's left of my mind
  • Drinking: my sorrows
Hehey, somebody take this knife out of me! I just need to breathe and now I feel like a demon. It's burning me. My eyes. They're burning me.. Like a flame that forces me to look at what I am.. It burns me alive.. I can never close them, never close my eyes, never stop listening to those words. I can't look at me, and I can't not look. It burns like Hellfire..

I'm making myself listen to it.. Trying to be with her in the suffering at least.. I long fo it to an end.. My hands.. they won't stop trembling... It cuts me.. It cuts me to the core of my soul.. I was just trying to help... I just need to step back.

And now it burns me in that dreaded helix, over and over again.. It keeps arcing back through me.. I keep MAKING it arc back through me.. I keep calling down the thunder right here on my head. I try to find solidarity, some kind of companion in the suffering.. It's better than just hiding in my inescapable, cold logic.

I keep seeing that smiling face through my tear-stricken eyes. The one that smiles up at me... The tiny one that whispers, "Promise?" That little eggshell voice... And it kills me.. It strikes me dead. Sitting in the grass.. Next to You... And it BURNS.. but I must. I must.. I have to keep going.. But who says I can't look back? I'm going to look back and feel that fire... Feel it every day.. Because that's how I remember it now.. and I must remember. God, I MUST! Let me have my memories!

Being together in the blinding pain is better than being alone and happy. But I must choose what's worse.. because of who I am. I must burn... Why do I keep listening to it!? Why do I keep watching? Because it's all I have.

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  • Personal Quote: Insanity is a perfectly rational lifestyle choice in the world we live in.
  • Tools of the Trade: Stuff to draw words with....

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:iconkdso:
Hullo bro hullo!!
would u pls help me out..
it would be a kind favor..
pls vote for me over here-
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:la:

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:iconcitywolves:
I voted for you, bro. You're in second place.. Just a little more and you'll win.

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"Silly. I like these open wounds. They spout the vermillion verisimilitude of my very vitality."
-The Sanguinary Artiste.

The truth exists, but man can never know it. He can reason, but he cannot know. Our duty is to get as close to truth as we can.
:iconkdso:
yay!! yay! reached at the first place!!
but my competitior is just 7 votes back than me!
Its schoot time for me... and i don't know what is going to happen in my absence!

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:iconminabeerfest09:
MIKUUS!

I MADE THIS FOR YOU AND CLOE :D

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i Be the AMAZING Ladee Haha

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:iconcitywolves:
Thanks, Maer. Chloe cried. Such a cute little drawing. I'm glad you're getting back into your thing. Cute and sweet is totally you. Don't get me wrong, you do some Epic Crazy, too.

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"Silly. I like these open wounds. They spout the vermillion verisimilitude of my very vitality."
-The Sanguinary Artiste.

The truth exists, but man can never know it. He can reason, but he cannot know. Our duty is to get as close to truth as we can.
:iconex626akakeon:
Thanks for the Watch!!! :glomp: :icondragonglomp:

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:iconcitywolves:
Ish no problem.

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"Silly. I like these open wounds. They spout the vermillion verisimilitude of my very vitality."
-The Sanguinary Artiste.

The truth exists, but man can never know it. He can reason, but he cannot know. Our duty is to get as close to truth as we can.
:iconex626akakeon:
Awesomesauce! :highfive: Oh and good stuff by the way, I like it. ^_^

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~ex626AKAKeon:heart:~wolfgirl832 And dontchu forget it!

Behold the power of my quiff!!! WRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY YYY!!!
:iconcitywolves:
Heehee, thanks, lol. If only I could convince myself to like it, lol.

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"Silly. I like these open wounds. They spout the vermillion verisimilitude of my very vitality."
-The Sanguinary Artiste.

The truth exists, but man can never know it. He can reason, but he cannot know. Our duty is to get as close to truth as we can.
:iconex626akakeon:
Hmmm I could help. -grabs you by your neck and speaks in a demonic voice- YOU WILL APPRECIATE YOUR OWN WORK IS THAT UNDERSTOOOD!!!!!!-starts foaming at the mouth-

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~ex626AKAKeon:heart:~wolfgirl832 And dontchu forget it!

Behold the power of my quiff!!! WRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY YYY!!!

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